When it hurts so bad..

I'm trying to find a positive view on my life because I definitely know I think about it too negatively. My bff in the city asked me the other day: "Why do you complain so much about your life being so bad? What is so bad about your life?" And honestly.. I had no real legit answer. I'm doing what I always wanted dream of doing.. I just never realized that I would have and then lose love in the meanwhile.

I was stupid to fall in love. And that doesn't mean I regret what happened with me and.. that one.. but I was silly to believe that I could make a functioning relationship with someone who I know is impossible for me.  I just have to accept that that is life and you win some and you lose some.. and when you do, although it feels like it. It's not the end of the world.

My heart knows that I still love him and it hurts and it cries and it's very painful. But my mind tells me that the right and only thing I can do is let him go. It's not healthy to have false hopes, so I just have to be strong.

Nefesh to Nefesh for ya. Gotta be strong..