Why is this so hard for boys to understand? People throw around the love word way too easily now days. I thought maybe that me and ___'s situation was an exception but now I realize it wasn't. I was just another name to add to his little book, and so easily he has moved on since me. Normally this would be totally fine. But he told me he loved me...
Maybe I'm just a stupid girl... To believe that if he said he loved me he truly did. But really is that my fault for even hoping that maybe it was true? I said it before and I'll say it again I don't regret what happened to me despite the pain it has caused. I'm living through it, and it's fine I'm a tough girl. But it just bugs me.. how just because he said that one word, my whole idea of being with someone.. has been
tainted.
I know right now it's still very fresh in my mind, but I just can't, in the near future, see myself opening my heart to anyone anytime soon. Love is beautiful but it's so painful. When I used to think of being in love, I thought it was the most most happy and exciting thing I could experience in my life. So when you lose that feeling.. all of a sudden, you see the truth about how ugly and mean this world really is.
Sometimes I wish I could tell my heart to stop talking. Shut up for a little so I can recover.
Please. That's really all I want.
Maybe I'm just a stupid girl... To believe that if he said he loved me he truly did. But really is that my fault for even hoping that maybe it was true? I said it before and I'll say it again I don't regret what happened to me despite the pain it has caused. I'm living through it, and it's fine I'm a tough girl. But it just bugs me.. how just because he said that one word, my whole idea of being with someone.. has been
tainted.
I know right now it's still very fresh in my mind, but I just can't, in the near future, see myself opening my heart to anyone anytime soon. Love is beautiful but it's so painful. When I used to think of being in love, I thought it was the most most happy and exciting thing I could experience in my life. So when you lose that feeling.. all of a sudden, you see the truth about how ugly and mean this world really is.
Sometimes I wish I could tell my heart to stop talking. Shut up for a little so I can recover.
Please. That's really all I want.
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