So.. I had 2 breakdowns this week.. in the most random spots.. Barnes and Noble.. and walking to the bus. I want to say that I cry at least once a week purely.. because I need to otherwise I'll go insane. I guess it's the whole thing about moving away from home. Every time I'm at home I'm dying to get away.. and every time I'm away from home I'm dying to get back. Honestly if it weren't for a select group of amazing people here.. I would've packed my bags a long time ago and gone back home. I am completely homesick.. but don't wanna go home.. at the same time.. which is so confusing that it's usually the reason I cry everyday.
I feel like I've reached that point in my life where I realize I can't completely be happy no matter where I am. I'm not really sure if it's just me.. or if it's everyone.. but I can't find one moment in my life where I wasn't 100% completely satisfied with my life. And that's fine.. because.. it gives me drive.. and gives me something to work for.. but there's always this empty incomplete feeling that I feel like I will always have for the rest of my life. It bugs me!!! Because I feel like I'm doing something wrong.. or maybe I'm just approaching life wrong.. but for now I got two options.. cry it out.. and just try to make the best out of the situation I have.. which.. both I have been doing.
This blog is no meant to be sad.. or depressing or anything.. in fact.. I'm pretty good in life right now (I could use a cute little dog but that's not gonna happen anytime soon).. anyway.. anyone have any comments?! Comment away!
seriously, i don't know why you miss Hawaii...there is honestly nothing happening here. Really. Nothing at all.
ReplyDeleteBut don't worry about your blog being sad, that's what blogs are for sometimes. It's good to get it all out, so go ahead! Feel free to vent.
So what is that picture? Do you guys have a webcam at work or something?
awww tasha, i love you!
ReplyDeleteIdk why I miss home.. probably the people most of all.. and the puppies.
ReplyDeleteAnd I have no idea where the pic came from. I don't think we have any web cams so someone probably snuck it in. My coworker found it and sent it to me.
MB! I told you I didn't mean for it to come out sad.. but.. it just did :( :(... it's due for a rewrite.
ReplyDeleteMy horoscope today "Even though you might initially find it hard to believe, early morning challenges tend to benefit you in the long run. Flow with events and you'll end up enjoying yourself"..
ReplyDeletehmm.
I think this just sets you up to the point where you will absolutely recognize where, who, what you want to be when it comes along. Bravo for doing it...most people here are way too comfortable with themselves when they shouldn't be.
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