“If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”

I found that quote by Lewis Carroll.. the man whom so many members of my generation look towards to find some sort of higher truth involving various types of influences. What an amazing person. Anyway! That quote is dead on with my life this week. So many things going on.. but this week I'm trying to approach it at a positive attitude instead of a depressed one like last week (maybe that will work better).

Still apartment searching (getting closer though).. and still job searching (not close at all). Yesterday Mallory and I found the most amazing apartment located in an awesome neighborhood and even though I immediately put my interest in taking the apartment.. so did 4 other people.. so I'm trying not to think about it.

Even though I'm not getting anything done.. it's almost soothing to see all the other people in the same situation as me.  One of those at least I'm not the only one things. I mean it sucks.. really bad.. that there's so many people looking for a job/home.. and there's just not enough available. Some people are gonna find one.. some people will fail and go some where else.  That's just New York.. and why if you can make it here.. even for a little amount of time.. you can make it anywhere.  Even the worst in NY would be considered the best in other places. It's very humbling.. and super shitty at the same time.


My friends Mac got stolen this weekend... I know it could worse (sorry Steph!)

Hopefully next time I write I'll be talking about my amazing apartment.. or amazing job! I'll take either

Why so glum Lewis?

Ashley or Mary Kate Doing Yoga

News: I just did some research and it was Mary Kate Olsen... she also smokes a pack of cigarettes a day.

I was planning to stick to one blog a week but I have some exciting news!! I saw Ashley or Mary Kate at Yoga To The People yesterday!! Okay so I know I live in city now and I'm supposed to be "cool" or .. whatever but I was flipping out!! I think seeing an Olsen twin at yoga tops seeing Tyra Banks (at the peak of ANTM) at Broadway Dance Center. Anyway.. it was super funny cause.. I was the only one flipping out (of course) everyone else was in their meditation already but that was impossible for me cause ummm helloooo it's an OLSEN TWIN!!

Seeing famous people in normal life always trips me out.  I always go through a wide variety of emotions. Usually begins with me freaking out. Then after I calm down, I wonder what the heck they're doing in a "normal people place". Then I start thinking of how they're so lucky they became famous. I mean.. Mary Kate (or Ashley!) Olsen.. fame was pretty much thrown on her since the beginning. She was a millionaire before she even turned legal.. she could probably buy the whole entire yoga building..  but here she was.. at the free yoga class. Amongst the starving artists and entry level recent grads just trying to make it through the day without mentally breaking down.  Way to go Olsen twins! Down with the people.

Love you friends have a good weekend :)

Completely Happy?

Hello my beautiful friends!! Thank you so much for your feedback.. or.. even reading my blog. I think that's super cool.. and I'm really excited/hopeful about the blog. My mom refuses to read it because she said I'm gonna write "bad things" in it.. bahaha. What a funny woman.

So.. I had 2 breakdowns this week.. in the most random spots.. Barnes and Noble.. and walking to the bus. I want to say that I cry at least once a week purely.. because I need to otherwise I'll go insane. I guess it's the whole thing about moving away from home. Every time I'm at home I'm dying to get away.. and every time I'm away from home I'm dying to get back. Honestly if it weren't for a select group of amazing people here.. I would've packed my bags a long time ago and gone back home. I am completely homesick.. but don't wanna go home.. at the same time.. which is so confusing that it's usually the reason I cry everyday.

I feel like I've reached that point in my life where I realize I can't completely be happy no matter where I am. I'm not really sure if it's just me.. or if it's everyone.. but I can't find one moment in my life where I wasn't 100% completely satisfied with my life.  And that's fine.. because.. it gives me drive.. and gives me something to work for.. but there's always this empty incomplete feeling that I feel like I will always have for the rest of my life.  It bugs me!!! Because I feel like I'm doing something wrong.. or maybe I'm just approaching life wrong.. but for now I got two options.. cry it out.. and just try to make the best out of the situation I have.. which.. both I have been doing.

This blog is no meant to be sad.. or depressing or anything.. in fact.. I'm pretty good in life right now (I could use a cute little dog but that's not gonna happen anytime soon).. anyway.. anyone have any comments?! Comment away!

ps. I spy with my little eye yours truly hard at work!!

My future is unlimited...

Sup world. Hope you all are having a beautiful and purpose filled day. So here's my blog! I have no idea who will read it.. or if I even want people to read it.. but.. it's something cool to do. I guess I'm hoping that one day like 5 years down the line.. I can look back at this blog and laugh and say that I was so cool.  

So.. I had an amazing last weekend in Reston, VA. Who would've known? Reston is like.. 45 min outside of the D.C. area and I had two absolutely amazing friends who I wanted to visit, so I took the 4 hour bus ride to visit them.  You know.. my whole life I thought I was a city girl. I grew up in Honolulu, which, is pretty much the main city of Hawaii. Then moved to NYC where I enjoyed my time running around the city causing havoc.  Then I moved to London.. which.. is pretty much like New York except everyone's white with amazing accents.  Everything in my life was always the bigger the better (very city-like thinking)But I guess now that I'm older.. and I pay for everything.. my life has become a lot more simpler.  I enjoy very little things like being able to sing at the top of your lungs with one of my best friends to your favorite songs.  Or watching stupid t.v. for hours while stuffing my face.  Or getting ready to go out and helping your friend pick an outfit which reads not super slutty but still looking for a man... Which is exactly what I did with my best friends this weekend. And you know what.. it was the funnest I've had in a while... so thanks Reston!!!

The beautiful girls who helped me party hard this weekend

Dainon and Melis my long lost wanderers

Being in a bus for 4 hours helped me contemplate life.. which I do all the time since now I don't drive so I don't have to think. Ever since I graduated from high school I've been on a constant move.. I'm very lucky because I think in the past 4 years I've seen more of the world than a lot of people can say they've seen in their entire lives (mostly due to my amazing parents who love to travel). I guess I can say I'm always on the move because I'm trying to "find myself".. which I like to translate as doing whatever makes me happy.  This past month.. I've been through a lot of emotions.. I moved from my perfectly fine life in Hawaii to the challenging scary yet really exciting city of New York.  I think I cried about 10 times.. and stressed out even more.. but nevertheless I'm glad to say that I'm moving forward. I don't know towards what.. or.. whom.. or.. where.. but hey that's what this blogs for.

w/love -  Tash.