Picking Back Up

It's been a hot minute since I last posted and I decided since my life is a whole lot better that I can hopefully finally start posting good blogs here instead of really sad depressing blogs.

Moving back to Hawaii did wonders to my sanity. Making the decision to come back home was a positive one and even though I miss the mainland a lot being in Hawaii has done some spectacular heeling to my soul. Feels great to finally feel like Tasha again. Just gotta get my head focused.. find a good job.. and I'll be cherry.

I've slowly started accepting feeling love again.. and although it'll be a while until I actually fall in love I'm open to the possibility that in the future it will happen again and I can feel happy again. I tell myself that if I thought Leo was love.. and it wasn't... then the next one is just going to be more beautiful and more meaningful to me. So yes.. although there was a year of suffering.. being able to move on feels like one of the stronger moments in my life so far.. and I'm pretty proud of that.

Being a girl..

Feels so empty sometimes.

Waiting for my heart to heal.

One year later and I can still feel the pain everyday :(

Why won't it go faster?!

:(

Sometimes drinking when your heart is empty leads to some mean rage.

Sorry.

WHAT DO I DO!?!?!?!

Seriously? Can someone flip a coin and decide my future? Cause I'm a complete mess. Gap years suck.

Sunrise.. Tantalize.. Evil Eyes.. Hypnotize.

In between, in the midst of all those steaming nights and days darkly colored, smelling of earth, I believe there lay some marrow of honest truth.


Poisonwood Bible

Sometimes...

Whenever my heart starts to hurt again, I try to remind myself that one day the pain will go away and I'll come out a stronger person.

Miss You

But don't want you.